Hi (:
My name is Chair and I rock.
Seventeen candles on the 28th September '09. I ♥ cocktails, cocaine, and clubbing.

PARAMORE
is the bomb.
you know you love me
xoxo


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at 1:01 AM

Hmm, had a recent chat with a friend, i dunno how to describe but just need some space to ventilate my thoughts, felt really confuse by everything said and heard. to be specific, hurt on the inside. its just like a drug, releasing its chemicals over a prolonged period of time, bit by bit and it feels like giving ur heart a jab every few seconds. im afraid of needles i must say, but its the true encounter im feeling now.....................................

Felt that how come friends could have the kind of thoughts u will nv imagine they will esp when they appear fine b4 you yea actually they dun feel fine? haha.. this is really the irony of Humans.
was thinking about how God can really love us like that when all the time we are so imperfect in our own ways, filled with hatred, jealousy, undecisiveness, forgetful about the good things done to you, always trying to cover up our own mistakes with others fault and stuff. i thought about it for about less than 5 mins, on the way home. i concluded, God Really Loves us alot. we can be so unlovable at times, but when we humble ourselves to pray to Him, and ask for His forgiveness, He is still right there at the same place waiting for us, and welcome us back to His side. i guess any parent would do it when their children are in the wrong, What more our heavenly Father?

Was suppose to meet ah li at her house de, but my mum called and ask where am i and everything, so she said i must go back n take care of my baby niece so i must go home and sleep. watched the brothers, wasnt as bad as i thought, rather i like the director in the certain angles he captured of the expressions and tensions featured in the show. Its a very touching show like what the others said. :)

Tonight is another Sleepless night.


at 7:01 PM

hey you!!! the 5 love language new scores@!!

Physical Touch
Quality Time
Receiving Gifts
Acts of Service
Words of Affirmation

Wander if its reli true, becos my words are quite strong too. been quite sick recently kena GE at home and been to the hosp to get my injection ahaha.. in the middle of the night of my night shift. duhxz.. but now recover liao la. so its ok. i always got alot of things to blog when im on the street but when im right infront of my com nothing comes out man. write to u soon dear Blog.

Please let me have an amount to pledge to u soon. Thank you!


at 1:16 AM

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

was going home alone just now on the same long stretch of road, i felt God reminded me about the things i accomplished and what sort of impact i have in other ppl's lifes. cant reli recall any specific ones, and thinking alot just now, sat at my house downstairs to figure out what are the things i wanna do in this life, issit just to live an average life or a life with God doing miracles? dunno how to express la, felt chances not given to me becos im not good enough, felt i didnt fight enough for the things i wanted in my life, so many regrets, so many misunderstanding. stupid conflicts among one another and insignificant growth in me. i ask God why in the 1099967 times, every single time He answered me that things are according to His plan and showed me Romans 8:28 All things work together for those who love Him and long after Him. i dun reli understand what it says to my situation but i know He has a way to make me understand.

I wanted Him.
All things including His heart.
Loving those ppl whom He loved.
Loving the unlovables and undeserving.
i want His emotions, becos His is so much better.
I cant make ppl respect me or look up to me.
It is my last yr's wish actually.
i want ppl around not just to remember my laughter, but words that God speaks thru me that impact them.
When things go wrong, things which breaks His heart, i want it to break me too.

Its this simple.